Today is a brand new day and I am feeling much more confident about getting through the surgery and recovery. Yesterday I was really struggling with the recovery process and the pain involved. I got 2 calls that helped me work through it though. The first was my specialist’s office letting me know that my surgery is scheduled for Thursday May 31 and the second was from a pastor who I consider to be a good friend who is very helpful when I am facing tough stuff. We had very good talk and I felt much better about stuff afterwards. Plus friends through social media (i.e – facebook) have been so very helpful as well. You know who you are. 🙂 So this morning I feel confident that this is something I can tackle.
Part of me is actually wondering if the pain from the broken rod is actually going to be worse than the pain from the surgery. I am pretty much stuck in bed constantly now with the broken rod giving me a lot of pain. Eating a meal is a challenge let alone anything else that I would normally do like washing my hair. I am not sharing this to get sympathy but just to share what I am facing. So I wonder if I will get through the surgery and find that it is a piece of cake after dealing with the issues of a broken rod. I would not mind this at all. 🙂 I remember the pain between the first and second surgery and the struggles I faced with that. Then after I had the second surgery and I was walking around in the hospital, I actually felt less pain than before the surgery. Although I think the drugs had something to do with it as well. lol 😉
I feel I have finally gotten into the mindset that I need to be in to get through this. This week I have dealt with all kinds of emotions and what not, but today I feel like I have worked through them with the help of friends. 🙂 Now I feel I am ready and determined to tackle this next obstacle. Having the surgery date really helps me to get to this point. I know what I need to do and now it is a matter of determining what I need to get done before, during and after the surgery and then get it done.I am not saying I will not face any more difficult times during the recovery because I am sure I will but I’m saying I can face this whole thing head on and get through it. I have been through this before so there is nothing to be afraid of. I suppose I can look at it as another adventure to get through. It is another mountain to conquer and when I am done my recovery I can look back as if I am looking at a mountain I just climbed and say to myself that I did it. 🙂 This determination is what has helped me get through many obstacles in my life and I know it will help me to get through this next one too.
Of course support of friends and family make it possible and that much easier to get through obstacles because determination alone isn’t enough. I really really appreciate all the prayers and support that I receive and I can not thank everyone enough who helps me through this. Determination is just one small aspect of what I need to get through obstacles in my life and friends and family and the support you give are another larger aspect. I saved this part for last because I feel it is the most important part of getting through something, which is the support from those around me helping to hold me up when it gets tough and cheering me on as I push through obstacles. I am so thankful for the people I have around me because this time around I know who will be there with me for the long haul.
I am choosing to look at this in a more positive light so that it doesn’t seem so horrible. This is meant to give me less pain and more freedom so it seems odd to call it an obstacle. I will call it an adventure which sounds more positive than obstacle don’t you think? So I want to thank you for joining me through this next adventure in my life. 🙂